facebook again..

finally, I'm the newest member of the facebook... I did managed to keep track of few lost contact friends.. to my surprise.. even my senior whom I know that not really IT savvy person.. was already a member there.. sungguh ketinggalan zaman la moi.. one of the dearest friend flew to sweden early this month to work on her phd... waaa.. sungguh banyak news for me.. now I totally agree this facebook thingy is awesome!

crazy cruel craving

If you asked me about any local or current soaps showing on tv.. I probably don't know and I could careless to know... my craving is the one and only with Kore@n soaps... I know it sounded so 'ancient' or maybe because it's been forgotten nowadays since the Winter Son@t@ made its debut.. no other Kore@n soap could outrun that story.. that's for sure.. it became such a phenomenal and hit tremendously in malaysia.. I believed that's the turning point of Kore@n drama in malaysia.. although I wasn't here at that time around to witness the anticipation..

at first, I wasn't into this soap thingy at all... just out of curiosity, I wonder what is so special about this series anyway.. my sister managed to borrow the CD from her friend.. so I'm very determined to watch and to complete the series at one go.. and I did .. since I have nothing to do at home.. still jobless at that time... after that, I became sort of addicted to Kore@n series.. I guess they have several 'X' factors which influenced me to watch them all... first of all, they don't have that vulgar love scene to sell.. secondly, they rely heavily on the drama itself.. for me, the line spoken sometimes is mind-blowing.. I never thought that it can be delivered beautifully.. so that makes the script was very well-written.. thirdly, their attitude and behavior are so polite and so gentle.. compare to us.. I'm talking about their courteous mannerism toward others i.e. driver to pedestrian.. that courteousness and politeness culture reflect their's daily life.. but how about us? we always said that it is part of our culture.. nonetheless, we did get a little jumpy when one of the survey result found out that we're not even 50% up to the courtesy standard.. for moi however, I'd kind of fall for that.. because it is very true.. it never reflects our manner.. and it never shows in our daily life... I know you would argue that it were all just acting.. but I've been to the lovely country.. and for me, I believed that some of the acting were true.. although not 100%.. of course.. and finally, they have young talented handsome actors and beautiful actresses to ogle at.. hehehe..

right now, I'm watching 'Cruel Love' at KBS world.. every Monday and Tuesday from 9pm to 10.15pm.. I preferred to hear them speak in Kore@n language.. rather than hearing voice over in Cantonese.. it is just so annoying.. I wanted to hear the actor's/actress's original voice.. not someone else's voice whom I don't know.. so if you're interested.. let's us make date on mon and tues then..

Amazing Race Asia II

I've been waiting with full anticipation the season finale of the Amazing Race Asia.. and I would say I loved the twisted ending!.. congratulation to collin and adrian on their stunning race performance during the final leg.. although at first it seemed like they never could outrun the filipino team.. but in the end, they proved to us that they were capable of doing just that.. I've been supporting this team since the season started.. maybe in favor of adrian's hearing and talking impairment.. I guess it's just so boring to support the strong team.. because they tend to become over-confident and over-arrogant over their's top place dominant.. but I would praise the filipino boys for not getting head over-the-heels on their consistent performance became 1st (or 2nd) on most of every leg.. I lost counted on how many times of their's top place winning.. on top of that, they were fully aware of their strong side-by-side contender...

or maybe it is de-javu that the strongest team would never win.. if you keep track the winners of the past seasons.. remember rob and amber in the original version of amazing race? they were at the top during the earlier race.. but ended-up being eliminated.. because of their's own mistakes.. and were not even in final 3.. devastated news for them.. but delighted news for me..

not to forget our malaysian team.. I would like to give a standing ovation to pamela and vanessa.. the team finished at 2nd place.. they'd also never thought that they could come ahead the filipino boys... I even have doubt with this team at first.. but it showed that girl power is still working its magic.. maybe they got it from zabrina and joe jer who'd won the 1st pilot season.. it's also proved that 'Malaysia Boleh!'

on the final road block task, they need to arrange 10 flags according to the country they had visited in correct order.. there were total of 13 flags provided for them to choose.. filipino boys had decided rowilson to do the task.. if marc has done the task instead of rowilson.. the terminator team would never had a chance to win.. it seemed like marc knows to most of the answer.. compare to row who'd struggled to get the right flag... adrian was representing terminator.. he just like, as row called him, a ninja.. who'd shoot the flags in their's holder like a crazy ninja... disability is not the reason to hold back to live a wonderful life but to live life to its fullest.. congrats to the Terminator team!!..

reunion on facebook.. or not..

in conjunction with chinese new year long holidays.. my friends and I had set our reunion/gathering luncheon at m@rchee d curve last thursday.. I had spaghetti and ice raspberries tea.. and that was it, my lunch.. since we'd so busy chatting and gossiping around.. we totally forgot to have the desserts.. it think we spent around 3 hours in there.. after that, waiting for one more friend who is the owner of 'Little H@ven'.. whom I know briefly back in Milwaukee.. she has 4 children now.. 2 boys and 2 girls.. what a bubbly family..

most stores were closed during that day.. I managed to mingle around for a while.. then, I'd decided to head to ike@.... which was jammed packed with people.. as usual.. the same scenario during any other holidays.. i.e. hari raya, christmas.. because my family is one of the reason that cause the frenzied crowd.. usually during 'hari raya' holidays.. since we don't have any out of the town village.. so mom would always asked us to drop by at ike@ whenever we go to visit families in KL.. I guess that's how city folks celebrate raya or any long holidays celebration..

I received numerous invitation to become a member of facebook.. I tried though.. but I don't know what happened, I just couldn't access it from my lotus notes email.. I don't know if it either because of the notes or the pc.. and I'm tired of trying you guys.. a friend who'd kind enough to invite me.. thank you so much.. and I think I might confused myself since I have so many ids and passwords to remember.. either it's related to work or not.. they are more than 5.. work alone are more than 6.. personal ids.. I simply lost track of the numbers.. the thing is I'm being threaten by dearest friends to become one of the member or otherwise I won't get to see the pictures of our gathering.. or invitation to anything... so cruel heh? what an extortion.. I totally forgot to bring my own camera on that day.. what a bummer!.. so, should I join facebook or not??..

engagement party

my dearest sister was engaged on her 23rd birthday last 19th January 2008.. I'd kind of expected this would coming.. and moi being older by 8 years still yet single and available.. ehm ehm.. so what my family say about this? well, for your information, it's not just me she'd skipped.. she skipped her 2 brothers as well.. since I'm the eldest and also the big sister, the pressure of course was heavier on me.. but you know, I never felt that pressure though.. so full and proud of myself heh? well, it's just I never wanted to over-think and over-burden myself.. I have this tendency of over-thinking and over-doing things.. just ask my close friends.. and they know that I am.. I couldn't sleep if I started thinking on heavy stuff like this i.e. marriage.. my mind won't stop working until I find the solution.. I used to be like that.. always edgy and worry what other people might think of me.. but over the time, I think I've become less paranoid, less perfectionist.. I try to control my mind.. I try to stop myself from over-thinking when i.e. the bed time comes.. or when I feel so restless.. which means I needed a break desperately.. I think if I keep that up, I would have OCD-obsessive compulsive disorder... seriously, I might.. for this marriage thing, I know in my heart, it is just a matter of time.. I have faith and believe in that.. what I need is your prayers for me to meet a good and descend person.. that's all I'm asking.. thank you for all your concerns..

mom's plan of the food was actually suppose to be a tea-break kind.. i.e. 'meehoon, 'mee' or 'laksa'.. instead we had this sort of late-lunch 'nasi beriyani' with complement of beef curry, 'dalca' and 'acar'.. on top of the original plan tea-break kind of serving.. 'roti jala' with complement of 'serawa durian' and chicken curry.. and 'kuih bakar'.. the 'nasi' was my auntie's idea.. since she's the family chef.. so we just follow whatever chef said.. the drink were consist of 2 kinds as well.. cold syrup and tea (as my 'nenek sedara' called it 'teh nipis').. it was really a grandeur feast for us.. according to the plan, the other party would be arrived around 2pm.. after zohor.. but then, we'd waited until 4pm.. still no sign of them.. and as I expected enough they'd arrived around 'asar'.. what a plan heh?.. I would say it was a family affairs for the other side.. because they brought along quite an entourage.. there wasn't enough space in our hall.. despite earlier I thought it would be enough since we'd cleared most of the furniture outside of the house.. the only one left was dining table.. some of their's family members had to sit outside.. but it wasn't really outside outside.. it just outside of the sliding door, where a place for us to sit around leisurely and have our tea after get home from work in the evening.. what an ironic, I would say..

speaking of grandeur.. the 'hantaran' were all grand.. it's not easy to find simple 'hantaran' nowadays.. everything were all grand.. compare back in the days.. from what I had witnessed during my older cousins's engagement 'kenduri'.. it were really simple, as I recalled.. maybe because it were long time ago.. and already became ancient stories, heh.. our side was suppose to give 7 'dulang'.. but instead we gave 9.. the additional 2 were from my beloved brother and his girlfriend.. lepas geram kot sbb tak dapat kawin dulu.. hahaha.. as for how long is the engagement period.. the guy's family asking for this june.. but mom said after 'raya'.. let's she catch her breath first.. that were her exact words.. since she has prior plans to attend to i.e. several office's trips.. as for moi, so agreed with mom.. I'm so swamp right now.. plus me and mom won't be around on April.. where we will be? you just have to wait to find the answer.. tungguuu...

new year.. new me..

I'm a bit behind to comment on this subject.. I'm aware of this.. it's just I never make or renew my resolution every year.. for me, it's really up to you when you want to accomplish your resolution.. and sometimes you can even do it in 6 months.. so should you wait until a year is over then only you make plan on another resolution? for me, it's just a guideline... maybe because it pleased your ear.. and the timing is easy to calculate rather than 365 days.. or 12 months.. or 8760 hours.. or 525600 minutes.. or 31536000 seconds.. a year is an easy guideline for new resolution.. for me, by right I should be working around the clock on my resolution.. every seconds every minutes and every breath you take is counting..

my resolution is always the same thing.. to become a better person.. as I reached to adulthood phase of life.. I can see clearly the transformation I'd made.. from rebellious selfish un-hearted teenager to calm compose and selfless person.. may I keep all this good things all along until the day I die.. and hoping to perform lesser sins.. the other area I would like to improve is expenses area.. in terms of my spending habit.. so that I have more buying and saving power... as of right now, I just don't have that freedom yet.. with fixed wage and price rised-up on just about everything I buy.. I just don't understand why is it really easy the price to go-up rather than go-down.. I mean I do understand because we're living in the world where capitalist controls the economy.. it's just when will it end?.. when will us finally living in the fair world.. plus it doesn't help with our wage being reviewed once a year.. if we're lucky, we get some.. if not, we'll have that same wage till next year review coming up.. I think I just might have to adjust and be prepare on whatever coming in the way.. one of my dearest friend warned me of this recession thingy.. which of course we never know when it comes.. it'll comes unannounced without knocking on your door.. so, this is a reminder for myself and to all my fellow friends out there..

and speaking of death.. I received a devastating email a few days ago from alumni mailing list.. one of our senior has passed away due to a heart complication.. his age was only 33 or 34.. I forgot his full name, and I'm not really close to him back in the college.. but he was the one who responsible on lodging and transporting new students like us from airport to the college.. it was a reality check for me, that you will never too young to die.. it's just a matter of time before we too, will follow his footsteps.. I pray that I still have time to prepare good deeds, and 'taubat' myself from every sins I've done... I pray that GOD keep guiding/leading me to a right direction and never ever leave me alone in the darkness.. may GOD bless him.. Al-Fatihah to allahyarham Halim and everyone who'd left us...

that's bring me to another reality check.. to keep a good health.. you never know what you have inside of your body.. every little pain or sickness, never treat it lightly or ignore them completely.. please take care of your health no matter what happened.. if you give excuses i.e. you have no time to take care of your health.. later when you sick, you'll make or have time in the world to do anything to get your health back.. take a good care of yourself before anyone else.. I know people depend on yourselves to do just about everything.. I know because I am.. nonetheless, if you're gone because of your carelessness, then it's just unforgivable.. to you and your dependent.. love yourself first before someone else.. that's my resolution for today.. what about you?

catching-up

I know it's been a long time since I updated this blog.. I'm leading a very hectic life after raya last year.. since new boss came in, it was all work for me.. and no time to play.. but started last month I'm making slot for futsal though.. since everyone at work were all very tense and edgy, we'd try to rev-up futsal training as soon as possible.. it was the only way to release tension and go away from hectic crazy work.. only GOD knows when all this madness will end.. I'd been buzzed by a dear colleague which highlighted on my non-existence post entry.. so this is a tribute to you..

to tell you the truth.. there's a lot of things going on in my life.. besides a detour and a major turning point in career life.. oh, if you're thinking I'm getting a promotion.. it's totally NOT that.. it's just a change of different job scope and responsibilities.. in my opinion, it's just more stuff placed on my plate.. I'm having trouble to finish them lot at one go.. until today, I'm still struggling to get everything right and fast.. but with little resource and poor data maintenance system.. I just couldn't get everything done right on time.. even if I started working at 5 in morning.. I still couldn't finish those reports on time.. plus I still have to provide support to the system users.. which sometimes I just feel like all crap.. sometimes I wonder why do I have to entertain all those stupid questions.. because they'd been doing this everyday... and still keep asking you the same questions.. again and again.. if it involves new things I don't mind at all to assist them.. in any way I can.. even though sometimes it's beyond my power and authority to help them.. if I feel like I'm too swamped to handle these things.. I just avoid phone calls.. sorry, I just couldn't deal with that at the moment..

I will try to upload some pictures.. if I can find them.. I have a lot of them.. but just don't know where are they located right now.. pc in the office is working at a snail pace mode.. there's no way I'm uploading the pics there.. I'll try to find time at home.. even home is also a working place for me.. so, I better stop here.. if I continue, I would go on forever and ever babbling about my boring non-stop working around the clock life.. I'll see you soon..

from,
moi