~ so very busy with work yet still broke
~ so very frustrated with everybody at work and home
~ so very sick mentally and physically
~ so very demotivated to fight of surviving this life
~ so very clueless on how to improving financial situation
~ so very loss to find way out of a very deep and dark labyrinth
~ so very fed-up taking unscrupulous orders from people
~ so very hate on feeling unsecure on just about everything
from,
moi
Friday, March 28, 2008
Monday, March 10, 2008
double birthday
Happy 55th Birthday to mom on 1st March..
and Happy 21st Birthday to my sister, Nurul on 9th March..
May you have good health, fortune and happiness throughout your life..
May all your wishes come true..
May you live longer to lead a wonderful life..
May God lead you to the right path and shine you with the light..
May God bless you in whatever you do..
Aminnn..
from,
loving daughter and sister
the tsunami election
Sunday March 9, 2008
Winds of change sweep Malaysia
THE first sign of a massive setback for the Barisan Nasional came at around 6pm. Incumbent Lembah Pantai MP Datuk Seri Shahrizat Abdul Jalil sent an SMS to say that she was going to lose her seat to her Parti Keadilan Rakyat challenger Nurul Izzah Anwar.
The ballots that were coming in did not look good.
The Women, Family and Community Development Minister said she had tried her best but gave an assurance that she was calm.
From Penang, my colleagues sent messages that Gerakan acting president Tan Sri Dr Koh Tsu Koon was trailing newcomer Dr P. Ramasamy in the Batu Kawan parliamentary seat.
The Gerakan, MCA and MIC were all wiped out, they said.
It became clear by 9pm that the Opposition had snatched the state from the Barisan, sending shockwaves throughout the country as Malaysians braced for more shocks.
In Sungai Siput, MIC president Datuk Seri S. Samy Vellu put on a brave front as feedback came from his supporters that he had lost his parliamentary seat.
He told them he was going home for a bath and did not return.
In the words of many politicians, it was a political tsunami.
There was more, Kedah also fell to the Opposition, then Selangor and Perak.
The wounds inflicted by the Opposition were easily the worst for the Barisan.
Even in 1969, the then Alliance only lost Penang and Kelantan.
In Penang, the then opposition Gerakan, together with DAP and Parti Rakyat, won 20 seats against the Alliance’s four.
In Kelantan, PAS had 19 and the Alliance 19.
The People’s Progressive Party could have formed the state government if it had decided to forge a coalition with Gerakan, PAS and the DAP but the PPP refused.
The PPP was just two seats short of forming the government but it refused to work with Gerakan, DAP and PAS.
Even in that onslaught, Kedah remained safely in the hands of the Alliance with 14 seats against PAS’ eight and Gerakan’s two.
Last night’s results stunned Barisan leaders and the media.
They expected the winds of change to come to Penang and Kedah but they missed out on Selangor, certainly the jewel in the crown for the Opposition this time around.
Barisan had focused its attention on the anti-establishment sentiments of the non-Malays but overlooked the mood of the Malay voters in some states.
There was even a sense of denial in some ways.
For Barisan, they had expected some dents in the predominantly Chinese areas and a serious challenge from PAS in the east coast states but certainly not in Selangor and Perak.
While the non-Malays had their share of unhappiness, there were issues that cut across all races such as the cost of living, corruption, mismanagement and security.
At the grassroots level, there were perceptions that Barisan, following the massive win in the 2004 polls, had become too strong and that there was a need for a strong check and balance.
In 2004, the Barisan had 198 seats against 21 for the Opposition.
The voters, especially those in the urban areas, obviously wanted to send a strong message to the leadership.
They wanted their MPs to be more humble and certainly more careful with their choice of words, whether at their party assemblies or in Parliament.
But there is a big mess to be cleared – new state governments will be formed in Penang, Selangor, Kedah and Kelantan.
As at press time, PKR secretary-general Tan Sri Abdul Khalid Ibrahim is expected to be made the new Selangor Mentri Besar and almost likely, his predecessor Datuk Seri Dr Mohd Khir Toyo, the opposition leader.
In Penang, DAP secretary-general Lim Guan Eng will likely be the new Chief Minister.
But federal-state relations will never be the same again.
With the Barisan still in control of the Federal Government, it may even review its numerous projects in states lost to the Opposition.
As the most industrialised state in Malaysia, Selangor will be affected in many ways.
At 12.30am, the Barisan had secured a simple majority to form the government although there were neck-and-neck races in many seats.
At the end of the day, however, the clear winner was the democratic system in Malaysia.
Despite claims to the contrary, the 12th general election proved that democracy was very much alive in the country.
Source: The Star
Winds of change sweep Malaysia
THE first sign of a massive setback for the Barisan Nasional came at around 6pm. Incumbent Lembah Pantai MP Datuk Seri Shahrizat Abdul Jalil sent an SMS to say that she was going to lose her seat to her Parti Keadilan Rakyat challenger Nurul Izzah Anwar.
The ballots that were coming in did not look good.
The Women, Family and Community Development Minister said she had tried her best but gave an assurance that she was calm.
From Penang, my colleagues sent messages that Gerakan acting president Tan Sri Dr Koh Tsu Koon was trailing newcomer Dr P. Ramasamy in the Batu Kawan parliamentary seat.
The Gerakan, MCA and MIC were all wiped out, they said.
It became clear by 9pm that the Opposition had snatched the state from the Barisan, sending shockwaves throughout the country as Malaysians braced for more shocks.
In Sungai Siput, MIC president Datuk Seri S. Samy Vellu put on a brave front as feedback came from his supporters that he had lost his parliamentary seat.
He told them he was going home for a bath and did not return.
In the words of many politicians, it was a political tsunami.
There was more, Kedah also fell to the Opposition, then Selangor and Perak.
The wounds inflicted by the Opposition were easily the worst for the Barisan.
Even in 1969, the then Alliance only lost Penang and Kelantan.
In Penang, the then opposition Gerakan, together with DAP and Parti Rakyat, won 20 seats against the Alliance’s four.
In Kelantan, PAS had 19 and the Alliance 19.
The People’s Progressive Party could have formed the state government if it had decided to forge a coalition with Gerakan, PAS and the DAP but the PPP refused.
The PPP was just two seats short of forming the government but it refused to work with Gerakan, DAP and PAS.
Even in that onslaught, Kedah remained safely in the hands of the Alliance with 14 seats against PAS’ eight and Gerakan’s two.
Last night’s results stunned Barisan leaders and the media.
They expected the winds of change to come to Penang and Kedah but they missed out on Selangor, certainly the jewel in the crown for the Opposition this time around.
Barisan had focused its attention on the anti-establishment sentiments of the non-Malays but overlooked the mood of the Malay voters in some states.
There was even a sense of denial in some ways.
For Barisan, they had expected some dents in the predominantly Chinese areas and a serious challenge from PAS in the east coast states but certainly not in Selangor and Perak.
While the non-Malays had their share of unhappiness, there were issues that cut across all races such as the cost of living, corruption, mismanagement and security.
At the grassroots level, there were perceptions that Barisan, following the massive win in the 2004 polls, had become too strong and that there was a need for a strong check and balance.
In 2004, the Barisan had 198 seats against 21 for the Opposition.
The voters, especially those in the urban areas, obviously wanted to send a strong message to the leadership.
They wanted their MPs to be more humble and certainly more careful with their choice of words, whether at their party assemblies or in Parliament.
But there is a big mess to be cleared – new state governments will be formed in Penang, Selangor, Kedah and Kelantan.
As at press time, PKR secretary-general Tan Sri Abdul Khalid Ibrahim is expected to be made the new Selangor Mentri Besar and almost likely, his predecessor Datuk Seri Dr Mohd Khir Toyo, the opposition leader.
In Penang, DAP secretary-general Lim Guan Eng will likely be the new Chief Minister.
But federal-state relations will never be the same again.
With the Barisan still in control of the Federal Government, it may even review its numerous projects in states lost to the Opposition.
As the most industrialised state in Malaysia, Selangor will be affected in many ways.
At 12.30am, the Barisan had secured a simple majority to form the government although there were neck-and-neck races in many seats.
At the end of the day, however, the clear winner was the democratic system in Malaysia.
Despite claims to the contrary, the 12th general election proved that democracy was very much alive in the country.
Source: The Star
Sunday, March 9, 2008
the civil duty
for those who already exercised your right to vote.. i do hope that you had vote wisely.. as for moi, this was my first time ever to exercise my right.. so, i was really looking forward for that kind of experience.. alhamdulillah, everything went well and smoothly.. I didn't even have to wait and queue on the line.. since there was not so many people around at the time when moi, mom and my sister arrived at the polling centre around 11 am..
finally, people has made their choices.. we wanted to see some changes... less corruption.. efficient governance, administration and transparency in the government... sometimes change is good.. i do hope that something good will come out of this transition.. for candidates who had won their seats, please do take your job seriously.. it is such a huge responsibilities and i know it is very hard.. nevertheless, do whatever you can to keep the promises you made before the election..
i'd heard one of the collegue who would not cast his vote simply because he opposed of the present ruling government.. so, if you simply sit there and do nothing.. do you think that the government would simply exchange hands in its own way? you have at least to cast your vote if you wanted your voice to be heard.. that's simply your job.. and the least you can do..
i think i'm being more patriotic now than ever.. maybe because i'd been away from home for a very long time.. malaysia is my home.. i love being home and i'm very proud to be malaysian.. as for the old saying says, 'hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri, baik lagi di negeri sendiri'..
finally, people has made their choices.. we wanted to see some changes... less corruption.. efficient governance, administration and transparency in the government... sometimes change is good.. i do hope that something good will come out of this transition.. for candidates who had won their seats, please do take your job seriously.. it is such a huge responsibilities and i know it is very hard.. nevertheless, do whatever you can to keep the promises you made before the election..
i'd heard one of the collegue who would not cast his vote simply because he opposed of the present ruling government.. so, if you simply sit there and do nothing.. do you think that the government would simply exchange hands in its own way? you have at least to cast your vote if you wanted your voice to be heard.. that's simply your job.. and the least you can do..
i think i'm being more patriotic now than ever.. maybe because i'd been away from home for a very long time.. malaysia is my home.. i love being home and i'm very proud to be malaysian.. as for the old saying says, 'hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri, baik lagi di negeri sendiri'..
Friday, March 7, 2008
the sequel
i don't know if the title is suitable enough for this entry.. one of dearest colleague experienced betrayal by another colleague.. not long after that, i experienced the same thing.. it came from a very close friend.. i felt like someone had slapped straight and hard to my face.. it was all began with one of our friend kind of needed help.. and the other friend who back-her up has made assumption and accusation of moi not being supportive enough for this so called 'needed friend'..
as for why i'm not being supportive enough... her being in trouble now.. her being such in a deep s**t.. is because of her own wrongdoing.. towards her parent.. for me, this is the root of all problems she facing right now.. yet, she acts as if this is not her fault, and nothing has to do with her.. being whiney and go on and on and on endlessly about her problems.. as if we ourselves live in a problematic free life.. as if she's the only one with the most difficult life in the world.. most of the trouble were usually involving and revolving around monetary.. things that i hate so much is that she could act all this innocent and pitiful of herself.. since been single back in the college days.. until now being married to a man who is most likely like herself.. what a perfect match to caused double trouble.. i know this because, another good friend of mine told me about this.. she was the wedding planner of the troublesome friend.. and she had witnessed a lot of disturbing things around the house.. and which i believed whatever single little thing she told me..
it's not that i don't want to help her.. i wanted too.. i have my own reason for not doing that.. maybe because i have a very strong and firm principle than anyone else on this matter.. that's why i'm being assumed/accused of so called unsupportive and unhelpful enough.. so i kind of gave up.. for me, what's the point of i'm feeding her fish everyday.. if she herself doesn't really want to CHANGE her life.. my wedding planner friend.. was helping out by not only feeding her fish but teaching her how to catch the fish as well.. but this so called needed friend seem ungrateful enough to have all these beautiful and helpful souls around her.. who are willing to help her in every way.. she would simply pinjam duit org sana.. pinjam duit org sini.. and her attitude towards her family is that she just order everything she wants.. i.e. mak nak duit, mak nak makan.. because of her attitude and willpower who simply doesn't want to CHANGE.. that's what pissed us (moi and the wedding planner) the most.. and NOT that i don't want to support and help her..
i might change my mind.. if she is willing to change her attitude and all.. as for the time being, that's where i stand.. if it takes 10-20 years her to realize what she's done is very wrong.. so be it.. and for this friend who called me unsupportive and unhelpful enough.. sorry, if my help and support doesn't really achieve your standard and par level.. because my definition of help is if there's any wrongdoing done by one of my close friends, i'm responsible to point that out.. and another thing is, if you really sincere wanted to help, you don't have to buzzing around to let everyone in this whole world knows.. so there, i rest my case..
note: different people take things differently.. you said, you always think good thing about other people.. yeah, that's your way of taking things.. not all people capable of doing that.. people like me, who happen to know the other side of the story.. just couldn't close my eyes and agree on whatever wrongdoing being done.. please bear that in mind before.. in case next time to assume people this and that..
as for why i'm not being supportive enough... her being in trouble now.. her being such in a deep s**t.. is because of her own wrongdoing.. towards her parent.. for me, this is the root of all problems she facing right now.. yet, she acts as if this is not her fault, and nothing has to do with her.. being whiney and go on and on and on endlessly about her problems.. as if we ourselves live in a problematic free life.. as if she's the only one with the most difficult life in the world.. most of the trouble were usually involving and revolving around monetary.. things that i hate so much is that she could act all this innocent and pitiful of herself.. since been single back in the college days.. until now being married to a man who is most likely like herself.. what a perfect match to caused double trouble.. i know this because, another good friend of mine told me about this.. she was the wedding planner of the troublesome friend.. and she had witnessed a lot of disturbing things around the house.. and which i believed whatever single little thing she told me..
it's not that i don't want to help her.. i wanted too.. i have my own reason for not doing that.. maybe because i have a very strong and firm principle than anyone else on this matter.. that's why i'm being assumed/accused of so called unsupportive and unhelpful enough.. so i kind of gave up.. for me, what's the point of i'm feeding her fish everyday.. if she herself doesn't really want to CHANGE her life.. my wedding planner friend.. was helping out by not only feeding her fish but teaching her how to catch the fish as well.. but this so called needed friend seem ungrateful enough to have all these beautiful and helpful souls around her.. who are willing to help her in every way.. she would simply pinjam duit org sana.. pinjam duit org sini.. and her attitude towards her family is that she just order everything she wants.. i.e. mak nak duit, mak nak makan.. because of her attitude and willpower who simply doesn't want to CHANGE.. that's what pissed us (moi and the wedding planner) the most.. and NOT that i don't want to support and help her..
i might change my mind.. if she is willing to change her attitude and all.. as for the time being, that's where i stand.. if it takes 10-20 years her to realize what she's done is very wrong.. so be it.. and for this friend who called me unsupportive and unhelpful enough.. sorry, if my help and support doesn't really achieve your standard and par level.. because my definition of help is if there's any wrongdoing done by one of my close friends, i'm responsible to point that out.. and another thing is, if you really sincere wanted to help, you don't have to buzzing around to let everyone in this whole world knows.. so there, i rest my case..
note: different people take things differently.. you said, you always think good thing about other people.. yeah, that's your way of taking things.. not all people capable of doing that.. people like me, who happen to know the other side of the story.. just couldn't close my eyes and agree on whatever wrongdoing being done.. please bear that in mind before.. in case next time to assume people this and that..
Saturday, March 1, 2008
bsb concert reunion
actually, I have no idea when this group would be coming to msia.. on monday, as usual with monday blues.. and with non-working mc staff.. I'm totally swamped with work... apparently my friend called a few times, moi with no avail.. then received email from her, and persuaded moi to go with her.. I said I don't know.. I'm too busy with work.. I called her crazy for wanted to go to that concert.. then, she replied I'm the one who crazy with work.. yeahh.. she was right on that one.. I didn't take it personally though... then, I asked what about your husband?.. knowing him who is not really into this boy band.. I still asked anyway.. but he's more into n'ysnc than bsb.. sorry min.. aku kutuk kau! benda betol pon kan? Kau kan suka JT.. hahaha.. so, that was a big NO.. he wasn't going.. then, rina and one of farid's colleague wanted to join.. as for moi, I'm still undecided at that point.. farid said 'come on la.. this is like our reunion with bsb after 10 years we'd been to their's concert back in st louis'.. that's very true and makes me thinking.. fine!.. point well taken.. what the heck.. since I've been working like crazy.. and no play at all.. I do kind of needed a break anyway.. at last farid, moi, rina and rina's sister were the final pack to go..
for moi, the almost one hour concert was compact, energetic and entertaining.. they called it beach party with bsb.. maybe because of the venue at sunw@y surf be@ch.. I knew it from the poster after the concert.. the only flaw was sound system.. as usual.. and the waiting.. haishh.. we'd all saying that 'bsb ni janji melayu'.. cos time stated on the ticket was 8pm.. we'd waited until almost 9.30pm.. finally, moi got a glimpse of AJ, howie, nick and brian came out wearing like boxer's robe.. did dancing and boxing move a bit.. they started with a few new songs which we didn't really familiar with.. so we just went along with the music.. ada terselit sikit 'larger than life'.. but it was just for a couple of lines.. after some time, they pumped it up with the oldies hits.. haa, baru la tau.. baru laa familiar.. as long as you love me, show me the meaning, backstreet back etc.. moi sucks at remembering the song title.. tapi bila nyanyi memang I know.. sorry la yer kawan2.. hahakss.. in between, each of them performed their's solo.. AJ and nick sang some kind of rock song.. brian and howie, sang somewhat similar to what they always sing in the group.. the last song they sang was 'shape of my heart'.. after our's 'we want more!.. we want more!' magic chanting.. as for the pictures, battery went dead earlier before long the concert last.. not so many captured.. I did meant to capture for all kind of wardrobe they'd wear.. they'd changed 3 times.. and surprisingly it didn't really took long at all.. first, they wore full suit of black leather.. secondly, changed to grey tux.. thirdly, colorful tshirts.. then, for the final song, they put on like batik/hawaiian shirt over the tshirts they wore before that..
the scariest experience ever after the concert.. in order to access upper parking level we had to go through a series of escalators.. I think that's the only and obvious way.. because I don't see any other way if let's say I wanted to go to the 3rd or 4th floor parking level.. unless they open up the backstage area.. or we go back inside the mall which was kind of complicated.. I'd never been to this beach area, so I don't really know.. imagine stream of people on 1st escalator.. that escalator was supported by small connecting space to continue to the next escalator.. what happened to the 2nd escalator was that it suddenly stop moving.. so, this bunch of people were standing still and waited until it moving again.. but the problem was that the 1st escalator below was still moving continuously and sending more people to that small connecting area.. and had caused a frantic over there.. it was like they had pushing toward each other.. but truly, it was not the case.. so upon seeing that, moi and farid, kept on walking, passed through a few of standing still people.. even though that escalator was stop dead right there and then.. the problem was management who handling the flow.. I don't know if it was really a technical issue.. or a person handling the escalator was non-expert on how to operate.. they seemed kind of clueless.. if you wanted people to climb the stairs by stopping the escalator, just put it to stop altogether.. another horrific moment, the 4th escalator went down instead of went up.. it was sending people down and clashed with the people who were sending up by the 3rd escalator.. so they kind of collided on that small foyer.. can you imagine how scary that was?.. I was imagining what if I'm the one who fall and got stampede by all those already panicking people? phieww.. that was really close call.. luckily, moi and farid, reached upper level safely.. we didn't even looked down.. we kept on going and climbing the escalator even though it was at stationary.. rina and her sister, were also lucky cos they had waited a bit longer rather than took that 3rd and 4th escalators.. otherwise, they'd be among who fall down when the escalator changed its direction..
despite the scariest ordeals after the concert.. despite neck and leg aches due to long stretched of all our limbs to catch glimpse of the real life of backstreet boys performance.. we had so much fun.. 10 years ago we were at their's concert in Busch Stadium.. we were so farthest away up on the upper level of the stadium.. last wednesday night, we could at least see and wave them all in person.. not boys but a very macho manly guys to ogle at indeed.. haha.. it was such a lost that Kevin was no longer with the group.. at least, we felt younger by 10 years.. and we love ya all!
for moi, the almost one hour concert was compact, energetic and entertaining.. they called it beach party with bsb.. maybe because of the venue at sunw@y surf be@ch.. I knew it from the poster after the concert.. the only flaw was sound system.. as usual.. and the waiting.. haishh.. we'd all saying that 'bsb ni janji melayu'.. cos time stated on the ticket was 8pm.. we'd waited until almost 9.30pm.. finally, moi got a glimpse of AJ, howie, nick and brian came out wearing like boxer's robe.. did dancing and boxing move a bit.. they started with a few new songs which we didn't really familiar with.. so we just went along with the music.. ada terselit sikit 'larger than life'.. but it was just for a couple of lines.. after some time, they pumped it up with the oldies hits.. haa, baru la tau.. baru laa familiar.. as long as you love me, show me the meaning, backstreet back etc.. moi sucks at remembering the song title.. tapi bila nyanyi memang I know.. sorry la yer kawan2.. hahakss.. in between, each of them performed their's solo.. AJ and nick sang some kind of rock song.. brian and howie, sang somewhat similar to what they always sing in the group.. the last song they sang was 'shape of my heart'.. after our's 'we want more!.. we want more!' magic chanting.. as for the pictures, battery went dead earlier before long the concert last.. not so many captured.. I did meant to capture for all kind of wardrobe they'd wear.. they'd changed 3 times.. and surprisingly it didn't really took long at all.. first, they wore full suit of black leather.. secondly, changed to grey tux.. thirdly, colorful tshirts.. then, for the final song, they put on like batik/hawaiian shirt over the tshirts they wore before that..
the scariest experience ever after the concert.. in order to access upper parking level we had to go through a series of escalators.. I think that's the only and obvious way.. because I don't see any other way if let's say I wanted to go to the 3rd or 4th floor parking level.. unless they open up the backstage area.. or we go back inside the mall which was kind of complicated.. I'd never been to this beach area, so I don't really know.. imagine stream of people on 1st escalator.. that escalator was supported by small connecting space to continue to the next escalator.. what happened to the 2nd escalator was that it suddenly stop moving.. so, this bunch of people were standing still and waited until it moving again.. but the problem was that the 1st escalator below was still moving continuously and sending more people to that small connecting area.. and had caused a frantic over there.. it was like they had pushing toward each other.. but truly, it was not the case.. so upon seeing that, moi and farid, kept on walking, passed through a few of standing still people.. even though that escalator was stop dead right there and then.. the problem was management who handling the flow.. I don't know if it was really a technical issue.. or a person handling the escalator was non-expert on how to operate.. they seemed kind of clueless.. if you wanted people to climb the stairs by stopping the escalator, just put it to stop altogether.. another horrific moment, the 4th escalator went down instead of went up.. it was sending people down and clashed with the people who were sending up by the 3rd escalator.. so they kind of collided on that small foyer.. can you imagine how scary that was?.. I was imagining what if I'm the one who fall and got stampede by all those already panicking people? phieww.. that was really close call.. luckily, moi and farid, reached upper level safely.. we didn't even looked down.. we kept on going and climbing the escalator even though it was at stationary.. rina and her sister, were also lucky cos they had waited a bit longer rather than took that 3rd and 4th escalators.. otherwise, they'd be among who fall down when the escalator changed its direction..
despite the scariest ordeals after the concert.. despite neck and leg aches due to long stretched of all our limbs to catch glimpse of the real life of backstreet boys performance.. we had so much fun.. 10 years ago we were at their's concert in Busch Stadium.. we were so farthest away up on the upper level of the stadium.. last wednesday night, we could at least see and wave them all in person.. not boys but a very macho manly guys to ogle at indeed.. haha.. it was such a lost that Kevin was no longer with the group.. at least, we felt younger by 10 years.. and we love ya all!
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